the d-day.

I'm sure you people have watched lot of movies where the gal brings tea for the guy, they exchange sights and wear a smile on their face. Today I happened to experience it. OMG! I got no words to explain the situation.

I was dumbstruck when the gal's father asked if he can ask her daughter to bring tea for us. I shook my head. I saw her coming from the kitchen with a tray with tea-cups. I looked at her for a second. She did too. I dint look at her face when she gave me a cup of tea.

I dont want to explain what all happened there but everything went good. She is fine. I'm good too. Hope everything will turn out to be good.

May 23rd, Sunday has turned out to be one of the most important days of my life. The D-Day, the day I met my 'D' (her name starts with 'D').

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not friendship. not love.

We are the 'bestest' friends you can ever find on the planet. I fall in love with you every now and then. But then, when I fight for silly reasons, I think I can never love you the way I did before. Again, when its all over, I used to wonder if I can, ever, be angry on you.

Our relationship is beyond words. Like I said, you cant find the word 'bestest' in a dictionary.

PS: I...I don't know.

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i'm so very careless.

I wrote and posted my 100th blog long back and I dint even notice that. I must be so careless. I'm happy anyway cuz I never thought I can be a blogger and there would be people to comment also ;)

When I started to write blogs, my first aim was to make some money out of the advertisements. I just wanted to write something. But once I started to writing, I realized its not about making money. This is a place where I can share my thoughts and my feelings :)

I still remember my friends commenting about my never-ending posts. I was all embarrassed to hear that. Then I happened to read some blogs where they write very less but give a strong impression to the reader. I also wanted to write small posts and for that matter, I dont want to make this post any longer :D

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Dec 12th & Jan 19th

I just wanted to make a note of the most important and precious days in my life so that it would last long... as long as this blog lives :)

Dec 12 - I hope if all days were this day... for I was happy the entire day. Very precious day in my life. The day I received most number of gifts. The day I felt so comfortable. I would celebrate this day just like my birthday.

Jan 19 - The day I lived my dream, my ambition. Never ever I would forget this day.

oh, its from within.

I can hear your name always. I did count. 75-85 times per minute. I was wondering what. Count touches 100 and above when I'm tensed. But then I noticed.

Its my heartbeat.

a beggar of me.

Few days back, when I was going back to Coimbatore from Cochin, I met a girl. To be frank, I noticed her cuz she was looking beautiful (but tensed?). She asked me if the bus was going to Coimbatore. I nodded yes. After few minutes she came to me again and said if she can borrow 50 bucks.

I was like, WHAT?! Her looks were charming and English fluent. I never expected her to ask for money. That reminded me of a situation, a situation which you may face any time.

Once me and my friends planned to go watch Thrissur Pooram. Its a very famous Pooram (English word? God knows what :D) in Kerala. We first went to my friend's home. Kept our things there and started for the amazing event. I dint forget to take the camera to click some snaps of the most anticipated fireworks. There can be lakhs of people to watch this and we dont know what types of people would be there. I dint take my wallet for that reason. We boarded the bus.

I was stunned to see the crowd for it was an ocean. we took each others hands for not to lose any in the crowd. But the knot dint last long. We got separated. I dint know where I was or where to go. I had no money also. All I knew was, the bus-ticket fare from my friend's house to this place was Rs.4.50. I dint even know the name of the place. I roamed here and there for hours and at last I decided. To Beg! OMG!

You will never know how the situation can change you, no matter how you look. It can squeeze the hell outa you. I had no choice then. I had to beg. I dint know whom to ask money. All I needed was 5 rupees. I asked some old people to work out their sympathy but they just gave me a weird look. 'Who is this stupid, asking for 5 rupees with a Nikon camera in his hand?'

I then aimed for people of my age-group. They could understand me better, I thought. At last I had to explain the full situation for one guy to give me 5 rupees. I dont have words to explain how happy I felt. I ran to the nearest bus stand and got into a bus. I gave tat money to the conductor and told him 'I have to go to my friend's place and that place is Rs.4.5 away from here'. Everyone in the bus were staring at me.

PS: I gave her Rs.50 and I smiled. I could see a smile on her face, the same smile which went thru my lips 6 years back.

PPS: BTW, I still have the balance precious-50-paise coin in my wallet.

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One year closer to death, I'm.

One more year passed. I was hoping to start the year with some good news. But as usual, all i heard was bad news. I used to think why this is happening to me alone. When I take a closer look, I feel everyone is suffering in one way or the other.

I desperately want some things to happen in life. Total re-arrangement. I heard its my good-old-friend's marriage, hopefully by the end of this month or beginning of next month. Wish you all success for that, if you are reading this. :) Always keep in mind that only good things happen to good people.

I'm praying most of the time nowadays. My heart is beating twice as speed as it was before. It may sound lame, but its not. Let me see if God can do what people cant. I cant believe i was a strong de-promoter of God before. Now I completely depend on him. No one else can help me. All I need is a miracle. Please!

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long time no see, psycho.

I'm back after a very long interval, i guess. I was in Coimbatore. Sadly, I was not allowed to log on to blog sites. I'm home now. I just wanted to take some time to check if my friends here stil remember me. khe khe khe...

I happened to get a comment from Urvashi. So Urvashiii... here I'm. :D
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Yet again I heard that my so-called-friends read my blog and I suspect if they missed my psycho-blog-posts. I think my blogs are meaningful, at least for me and some of them who read mine. And those who feel I'm a psycho-fuckin-looser, please, you would really need a mirror.
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The above text was meant to someone who is so special, respectful and he who thinks he knows everything and actually knows nothing. Why don't you go check the polio vaccination schedule?

So, today was a very important day in my life. I came home for a reason and I think I'm 90% successful. Rest 10%...hmmm...yes i can get it done over time. :D Let it remain a secret till then. Need your prayers BTW.

I'm expected to take a Tata Indicom Photon+ very soon which would mean you can expect my frequent visits to read blogs and also to write some psycho-blogs :P

at office.

So here I'm. The most awaited day this was, since i joined the company. The Last Working Day! khe khe khe...I cant type another blog sitting in this office. From 10th, new office, new place and new friends.

I got nothin to tell you in person. But i think i will miss you people. Yes, hopefully very few of them. My Project Manager and people who sit next to me. I would keep in touch with them for sure. I'm happy but sad also on the other side of my brain :)

i dont wanna type any longer. These people will block my ID as soon as I finish this email. So I'm in a hurry. I don wanna take last minute risks :D n yea You would also prefer me to stop flattering.

I will see you all. Love you...

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yOu aRe wiTH mE...

I came near the window to hold your hands and i did. i wanted to run along when the train started. i wanted to run the whole way. i craned my neck to have a glimpse. i cried thinkin i cant see you again when i saw the train melted into the darkness. But then i noticed.

I can see you when i close my eyes.

i LoVe taLKinG tO yOu...

Lets say you are about to do something. Something which will give you immense happiness. Would you think of the price tag that comes along with it, if you know you can afford it? Hmm...there can be people who might think. But i dont.

I dont mind paying my whole salary as my telephone bill when i'm talkin to you, owner of the sweetest voice on the planet.

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tHiS iS fOr yOu...

I dedicate a song for you.
I'm the score.
You are the lyrics.
I cant sing a better song.

i'M nOt aShAmEd tO sAy tHiS...

i was on my way back to Chennai from Cochin. i had to come by flight cuz my flight was official and i showed no mercy towards my company. i wanted to go by flight and i gave them no choice. khe khe khe... ;)

i was stunned by the astonishing view from the plane. i almost saw the whole of Cochin, i must say. this was the first time i was on a flight on a day-time. i was always looking thru the window n i started waving my hands lookin thru the window. The girl who was sitting beside me was surprised. She asked me y was i waving my hands. i dint reply. i jus smiled.

i still remember, when i was a kid, i used to hide under my cot when i hear the sound of an air-craft. i felt it is somethin so dangerous n i neva used to come out. One day my mom asked me not to be frightened of the heavy sound and she took me to the play-ground nearby. She looked up at the sky and showed me the small plane among the clouds.

She told me the plane is making such noise to make you wave him good-bye. There are people on the plane and they are waving at us. Then she asked me to wave at the plane whenever i saw one for someone inside the plane is always waiting for my 'bye's. It made me so happy n from then i became courage, courage enough to wave good-bye :P

I'm 25 years old. i'm not ashamed to say that i still wave my hands when i see aeroplanes or if i'm inside the aircraft. i always did and i always will.