Thursday, March 18, 2010

Just to keep this day, March 18 2010, in my mind for it was a beautiful day. After waiting for more than a month, I got a gift from my best friend. I dint get kissed though (as the picture suggests). But it was as precious as a 'kiss'.

vodafone network spolied it all.

This is not the first time. This fuckin vodafone network in Coimbatore sucks. I need to dial the number at least 10 times to get it connected. This is the problem with texting also. I need to keep checking my outbox every now and then.

I need to resend the same msg at least 3-4 times. DAMN! Mobile shows full range but the moment I send a msg or dial someone, range goes down as if my stupid phone is taking revenge on me.

I'm fed of this shitty Vodafone network. I had to call my friend for something really serious and I was not able to reach her. I got so tensed. @#$%^&*... (Pls fill in as many bad words as you can.)

Happy Valentine's day BTW. I'm not celebrating it today for my Valentine(?) is kinda busy :| So, I will have it on Feb 15th. :D

OMG!

And this post is about my niece, Ammu.

I don't know if this is the case with all kids but she is different. She is different in her own ways. She says 1,2,3,...up to 10 without any help, though she misses 4 and 7 every time. Remember she is just one and half year old.

The only thing which I hate about her is her behavior when she gets angry. I dont know how my sister is managing her. We were sitting there chatting with Dad n Mom. Ammu was sitting on the table and when she felt nobody was noticing her she started crying. It went on for 2 hours. She is so very small but when we hear she screaming, I bet, you would never say she is 'small'. She wants her Mom to get up and when she, my sister, does it Ammu wants her to sit. This is not just once. This goes on, say 50 times? 100 times? I dont understand where on earth she gets this much energy to cry continuously with the same intensity and volume for 2 hours.

I thanked God when she stopped crying. She was so tired and she slept. It dint last long. She woke up and started to crying again. Then I felt there was something wrong. I told my sister to give her some medicine for stomach pain cuz I have seen her screaming like that before. Luckily after 10-20 mins she stopped crying. I cursed me, my sister and Mom for blaming her when she cried. We felt sad that she couldnt express it in any other way. They cant even talk.

After a while, my sister was working on my laptop, Ammu again started crying for no reason. I dont know if she had any reason but she showed no symptoms of any body pain or anything like that. She again wanted her mom to get up and sit down. She wants her mom to take her on her hands and when she does that, she will scream to put her down. OMG! She was getting on our nerve. I dont know if all kids are like this. But not in my life I have seen such a kid. I'm not cursing her or blaming her.

But this post is just to show her, obviously when she becomes old enough to understand what a blog is, how she irritated us and we took care of her even when we were angry. I just want her to understand how tough it is to raise a kid. OMG!

I will think twice before I 'do' something to my wife. Khe khe khe... ;) I need to think about the hardships like this....

PS: Ammu...whatever you do, we still love you! :) mwaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh.... But we just get irritated at times. :D

Yours sincerely & I remain,

I was expecting a lot this year, but this was definitely not one of them. I was kinda shocked when I came to know this. But then, why should I be? I wish you all success and a peaceful life. I may not be praying cuz u did no good for me. But be sure I wouldn't curse you. Not in my dreams.

I'm anticipating a similar news in very near future. Maybe I would die of stroke when I hear it. Luckily, that's what I want. khe khe khe... You know, some news are worth dying.

Anyway, Happy New Year and Happy Life and May God Be With You!

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wish me luck.

I'm off to Coimbatore. New company. New project. New place. New culture. New Climate. New mosquitoes :P. Hopefully new friends. New Email ID. New mobile number. New food. New water. Hope i wont struggle there for its a better place than Chennai.

I'm happy that i can come home every week.

here i'm, dying.

I know you love me. More than anything on the planet. But why not saying it? Its the sweetest thing I can ever hear and you can ever say. My life is depending on it, on what you say. The wait is killing me.

my kind-of-feeling

Unfortunately or fortunately, she is a Christian and I'm a Hindu. I sure cant find any possibility my parents or her parents agreeing to this relationship. But is that her problem or mine? What we did? Nowadays I kind of started to generating a feelin, hatred towards Christians. All of them in this world. Maybe I'm wrong. Not maybe. I'm wrong.

Maybe I'm too possessive or maybe I'm very badly in love with her. Whatever! I cant get over it.

Yes, chaos it was.

2 months back -
I wanted to release from project. My managers dint approve. I had to submit my resignation. They made lot of problems. They asked me to stay and serve the notice period. Meanwhile, My parents told me its a very bad time for me according to astrology.

Almost the same time, one of my friend got selected in the same company where i got selected. I felt happy for it. At least i got company. But for my confusion, I got an offer from another company but with a higher pay. I felt happier.

My managers was not releasing me from the project at all. They made lot of problems and they said they can relieve me only on Dec 7th. I told this to the companies which offered me job. They luckily were fine. My parents called me in between and said after consulting the astrologer that till Dec 7th its really very bad time for me. I was confused then. But that isnt the purpose of this post.

1 month back -
My friend which i mentioned earlier also got an offer from the same company again. Now, i was also confused to go where. 1st company is in a place near to my native place, just 4hrs away. 2nd company is in Chennai itself. But i decided to stay back in Chennai cuz now my 'company' is here for my friend cuz he rejected the 1st company. :(

Yesterday -
I informed the 1st company that I received another offer from another company and they are paying me more. So i would more likely join them if you wouldnt re-consider my pay structure. 1st company is in great danger now. They had scheduled the project and assignments and all those shits. They called me and asked for my expectation. As always, my expectations were too much for them but they assured they would provide the same offer 2nd company offered. And now i got a better offer and a better place also.

Today -
See how chaotic life is. But still i can see an order, the way things happened for a good cause.

nOt fLaTtErY...

Hi,

Its been 6 years since we met. I still remember the first day i saw you. In that blue dress, you were looking like an angel. When i heard that you loved someone, i was jealous. I dint mean to say that it was love at first sight...but after many 'talks'. How many times have we met in these 6 years? 5 or 6 or max 10?

I dont know when did i start loving you. All i need in my life is you. I dont need something better or something worse. This is the only thing i pray to God. If you check my other blog, most of the posts are meant for you. I wanted you to read it, words from my heart.

I know its not gonna happen cuz we are from different religion. But is that my problem? Parents need someone who can take care of their daughter. Yes, they look for all kinda things which exist no where but only in Kerala. 40 years. I cant think of living with some one i rarely know. I dont wanna live with some girl. Its you i need. Not just any girl.

I'm offering 40 years of happiness and more if i live longer. I wont let you stay in a world where I'm not there. I'm sure we are gonna die together too. I wont leave you alone. No one has ever loved you the way i did. No one is loving you the way i do and no one will ever love you the way i will. I'm asking for a life.

Will you marry me?

PS: Straight from heart. The words may not be perfect. But hope you can understand what i meant. I'm even ready to repeat it till my last breath...

PPS: 101th post. New beginning. New post. New life. New love letter.

nEw cUbicLe iS nOwHeRe nEaR gOoD...

I came to office late today. As usual. I had to attend a meeting online. I rushed towards my seat. I kept my bag aside and logged in. I was surprised for the login ID wasnt mine. i was like WHAt?!

"Hey, dont you know? Your place got shifted to there" my friend said pointing to a computer which was open to anyone who goes to the rest-room.

Even i had no idea of shifting the place and no one told me also about this. I was already late for the meeting. I spent 5 minutes to get my things shifted to the new place.

New place sucks! This is not at all good. All my friends are with their friends and I'm the only one to stay with a stranger. And the funny thing is I'm sitting next to an IT Admin guy. So that would mean that i CAN NOT take orkut illegally. That was my only time pass and ofcoz blogging. Even I'm not supposed to open Mozilla. The greatest concern is anyone can see my PC.

To make the things worse, employees from the other facility also shifted to here. And now when i go to the cafeteria, i feel it no different from a local railway station. People everywhere :(

i miss my old place.

i dReAm oF a LiFe wiTH yOu...

I have told this many times. Maybe you got bored reading the same thing again and again. i tried to writing the same thing but in a different way. Yet, you dint understand. If i were to write a blog whenever i think about you, i would just be typing it over and over having no time to post it cuz i never stop thinking about you. i never stop dreaming about you...

aNd tHeY aRe caLLed - iDLi...

i'm fed up of having idli. i kinda hate seeing that stupid round thingy around. i'm sick n i know i m not supposed to hav any oily food. But y keep reminding me tat m sick askin me to hav idli. Ayyyooooo...are there not any other food item non-oily other than idli?

My stomach is craving for somthin which is, for sure, not idli!

cAn wE mAkE a dEaL...?

i know its not gonna happen. Still i cant refrain myself from this. I just cant stop loving you. We cant be together for sure. I'm not afraid of death. We cant live together. But shall we die together?

iF tHaT, wHy nOt tHiS..?

Please dont say the reason 'You are my friend and i cant see you like 'that'...'. Please, Not again! If you can marry a total stranger, whom your parents find, Why not a good friend of yours whom you know for years?

tHe dEviL iN mE...

few years back...

girl: i dont like you talkin to her
me: i know you are possessive about me but i cant do wat u say...
girl: you neva gave value for my words, for wat i say
me: see, i cant stop friendship with her just cuz i love u. she is my best frnd. i just cant stop frndship with her. she is all i have.
girl: oh..she is ALL you have? Oh my!
me: i dint mean it literally...Look, i met her b4 i met you n i cant stop anythin for you. my last word. No more talks on this.
girl: bye...

PS: Now i understand what made her say like tat, wat was she goin thru. I understood only when i came across a similar situation like this. But this time i was arguing with her askin not to talk to her frnd. i always think about me. Only ME! i feel sorry now.

aRe aLL gUyS liKE tHiS? part 2

i found some very interesting blogs recently. i was surprised to know the fact. Is it somethin like a Blog-House-Effect like Green-House-Effect?

I read a very good blog n 'HE' has a very good reputation when it comes to bloggin. He started bloggin 3 years back n he had only less than 25 followers. At the same time, i came across another blog n 'SHE' started bloogin a few months back. Early this year to be little specific. Her 'topics' were 'OK'. Neither good nor bad n she had less than 50 posts in total. BUT, she had more than 70 followers.

Another funny fact is, most of them were 'Guys'! khe khe khe... Guys do follow 'ONLY' gals' blog? Why is it so? Only Gals do write good blogs? Duh!

Why Guys only follow gals? Even when it comes to blog? i can think of obvious reasons when it comes to other topics...khe khe khe... Hey gals out there - you are lucky! Your blogs get more popular than a guy's.

PS: You can read the first part here, on my other blog.

nObOdY...bUt yOu...

i don wanna see anythin, but your eyes
i don wanna hear anythin, but your voice
i don wanna hold anythin, but your hands
i don wanna feel anythin, but your presence
i don wanna touch anythin, but your skin
i don wanna kiss anythin, but your lips

i don wanna be anyone, but your love!

hApPy DiWaLi, aLL... :)

We people dont celebrate Diwali! I mean, I DON'T celebrate for I'm from God's own country, Kerala n people there don't celebrate it except very few :)

But i'm happy for this Diwali cuz its a holiday 2moro n i don hav to come to offis for that matter :D
n So i'm gonna enjoy this Diwali!

Happy Diwali to all of you! Enjoy and Haf fun! :))













Would you guys believe if i say i took these fotos? DONT! Cuz i dint take those :P
khe khe khe...

HAPPY DIWALI! Haf fun!

iT mAkEs mE hApPy...

Money makes me so happy that i feel i'm on top of the world. When i work on somethin for quite some time, i get bored. i curse them, i blame them. But when i get to do the same work for a higher salary, i praise them. Money matters to me a lot.

There is no point in teasin me. i cant be blamed. You will also do wat i did if u were in the same situation. Or does tat make u jealous when i do wat u do but i get a better paycheck?

OpPoSiTe PoLeS aTtRaCt... (^_^)

i have been thinkin this since when i was in 10th std. i dono is this somethin like a Thumb-rule which has to be followed or rule-of-nature kinda. i have seen lot of lovers since my childhood. In all the cases at least the gal will be so looking good or the boy will be very handsome. Not even once i have seen where both of them are lookin good. i dono y this is happenin.

The bitter truth is - All Beautiful Gals have Not-So-Good-Lookin Boyfriend and All Handsome Guys have Not-So-Good-Lookin Girlfriend. Why? i'm not tryin to say that the guy or gal is not good at their heart. They might be, but their looks are poles apart. Outa 100, 98 of them r like this :D

So, What i'm tryin to say is, i feel very happy (and lucky, ofcoz) for one day i ll also get a Beautiful-Girl-Friend! khe khe khe...

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