i'm anything but miser.

To quote Google,

mi·ser/ˈmīzər/

Noun: A person who hoards wealth and spends as little money as possible.

I wear a Tissot. I use a Samsung Galaxy S3. I have 2 Apple iPods - one Touch & one Classic. One Bang & Olufsen earphones (and many other stuffs). I bought all these with my money. I'm not boasting about myself. I've always been extravagant and will always be. Though I'm not taking any credit for that.

I rarely think about money when I want to buy something for myself or my family. I do think when I'm spending money for someone else. It's my money and I've the right to think and will continue to do so. I've never stopped spending money for them though not in the same way I spend for myself. Even so, how can that be counted for a miser? 

I'm not spending money for them the way I spend for myself and so I'm a miser? What the heck? I didn't stop spending money or I'm not saving money in any bank account or anywhere else for that matter.

Does that make me a miser? I mean, really?

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it never works out the first time.

There is nothing more painful in this world than hearing from the person we love the most that she loves someone else. It doesn’t matter how much we love someone. There is always someone else who loves the same person more than we do.

I got an email from N asking me to stop disturbing D. I didn’t really understand what N actually meant by the word ‘disturbing’. How am I supposed to ‘disturb’ my wife-to-be? Even if I’m disturbing, I think I have the right to. Why does he care?

It was not a rude email, though I couldn’t digest it. Who on earth is N? I hadn’t even heard of him from her. I replied asking his contact number. I desperately wanted to talk to him. He gave his number and I called him the next moment. He sounded polite and cool. He was 4 years younger than me. He was a friend of D. Best friends I must say. He told me not to disturb D or her parents again. I was more than shocked. I was in US at the time. I’m wasting my money. I didn’t know what to do.

He was saying each and every word that I and D used to talk over the phone. How the hell he came to know about all that? He told me things I told D which I didn’t even remember. He said he has access to D’s email and he has seen all my emails. He also told me that D is not at all interested to get married to me. I asked why is not D saying this to me and why you? ‘She is afraid to tell you this and she is doing this for her parents. She doesn’t want to make her parents sad. She doesn’t want to insult them.’ – was his reply.

I didn’t utter a word. My heart sank. I asked him about his interest in our case. He said he can’t see D suffering. He warned me to drop this alliance. I asked if he loved her. He said he did and he loves her more than anyone else on the planet.

I called D and asked about N. Not even once had she mentioned about N. She is not in love with him but she fears of a life with me, a life like hell. That’s the word she used to mention how her life would be with me – HELL!

I didn’t say anything. I loved her a lot. I was on the verge of crying. Not because she is going to drop this but for using the word ‘Hell’. I asked her to explain it – What is that I did for her to say it would be hell? She kept mum.

I didn’t even think of dropping the alliance. I loved her. I wanted to marry her. I knew she loved me too somewhere deep inside her heart. I thought I would wait for her. I always wanted to marry the girl I meet first. I mean, the girl I meet which comes as an alliance. You know, it sucks to go meet a lot of girls and dropping them (or they dropping me) for some stupid reasons. I actually did forget about my 2-syndrome.

God’s plan would be completely different from our plans. It had to get dropped. I don’t want to mention the reasons here but I can assure you that it’s not because of the reason I mentioned before. See, how can it be hell? I’m not a bad guy you see. I think I’m good, not very good though. ;)

How would you feel if you hear those words from someone about the person you are going to get married – that he/she loves her/him more than anyone else?

I just want her to be happy whoever she gets married to. She is damn beautiful when she smiles.

PS: I apologize for the length of this post.

marriages happen in heaven? depends.

I have never come across a situation like this in my life. I have heard of such news through my friends, through newspaper. It was one of my distant relative's marriage yesterday. And the girl ran-away with someone one day before the wedding.

The news was a shock to everyone and the groom almost lost his life. I dont know if they got to talk over phone (cuz that happens a lot these days) and get acquainted. But she honestly could have avoided this kind of embarrassment in the very last moment. What was inside her mouth when the engagement happened?

But there is a reason for her waiting till the wedding day. She eloped with all the gold her parents bought for her. Luckily, groom's parents happened to find some girl in their distant-relation and got them married on time.

Will she ever escape from the curses of those many people? Will love make people so blind? Thank God, she dint elope on the day of wedding. OMG!

genuinely insane self.

I was very much fond of playing cricket when I was young. I liked wicket-keeping though I was not a good keeper. To add strength to that statement, one day, the ball hit my nose. I was continuously sneezing for about half hour.

I got so tired sneezing and went home at last. I just stared into the mirror and was shocked by the irregularities. khe khe khe... I saw a bent-nose. OMG! It was not actually bent, but I pressed my nose to feel the bone and I felt a difference. I dint want my parents to find this out and desperately wanted to hide my bent-but-not-yet-bent-nose.

IDEA! I took a small hammer!

I wanted some place to support my nose so that I can pat on my nose and make it straight. I thought a lot and at last I laid my eyes on the teapoy. I went near it and placed my face on the teapoy so that my nose is the only part on it. I took the hammer. I swear, I would have been a fool then (even now I'm, to post it here and get embarrasses :D).

I shot two small pats on my nose and checked if it straightened. No! Okay. I held my breath and gave a strong-enough-to-break-my-nose-bone pat. OMG! I was startled to see the blood flowing thru my nose.

PS: Please dont try this at home. Khe khe khe... :D

nEw cUbicLe iS nOwHeRe nEaR gOoD...

I came to office late today. As usual. I had to attend a meeting online. I rushed towards my seat. I kept my bag aside and logged in. I was surprised for the login ID wasnt mine. i was like WHAt?!

"Hey, dont you know? Your place got shifted to there" my friend said pointing to a computer which was open to anyone who goes to the rest-room.

Even i had no idea of shifting the place and no one told me also about this. I was already late for the meeting. I spent 5 minutes to get my things shifted to the new place.

New place sucks! This is not at all good. All my friends are with their friends and I'm the only one to stay with a stranger. And the funny thing is I'm sitting next to an IT Admin guy. So that would mean that i CAN NOT take orkut illegally. That was my only time pass and ofcoz blogging. Even I'm not supposed to open Mozilla. The greatest concern is anyone can see my PC.

To make the things worse, employees from the other facility also shifted to here. And now when i go to the cafeteria, i feel it no different from a local railway station. People everywhere :(

i miss my old place.

aRe aLL giRLs LiKe tHiS..? pArT 4 :-/

Pre-Script: Please do NOT continue reading if you are already offended!

boy: seems u r in good mood 2day... :D
girl: i m always in good mood.
boy: wat u do durin ur leisure time?
girl: i don hav free time. m busy al the time. :|
boy: wat happened to ur blog? y not updating it? runnin outa topics? :P
girl: i never run outa topics :|
boy: okay. wats the name of the character in the pic?
girl: Calvin. u dono?
boy: No...i m hearing tat for the first time.
girl: u havent heard? u dono Mills n boon, u dono Calvin n hobbes! Oh Gosh!
boy: Hmm... are u kinda-show-off girl?
girl: show-off? wats that?
boy: gosh! u know Mills n boon, calvin n hobbes but u dono the meanin of show-off?
girl: there is no point in talkin to u. i'm gonna block u in orkut n gtalk. go n learn manners first.
boy: don feel offended.
girl: you r such an insane. don talk to me anymore. u r a bastard with bad mouth. u r askin me not to feel offended. u can ask me if i m a show-off girl n u dint feel it offended? u r very old but immature. arent you? learn to be polite n then talk to me.
boy: *thinks* i shudnt have don this mistake talkin to her. OMG!
boy: please don use foul language...when i don react when u used tat word, it doesnt mean that i dono any words to use against :|
girl: i was normal when talkin 2u. go learn some manners. no wonder why your friend don call u.
boy: *thinks* which friend? :O
girl: hypocrite! you say to someone you aren't normal and then say don't get offended what an heroic deed! u ask me if i m showin off n u ask me not to use foul language?
girl: bye
boy: thanks! bye...

*hours later*
boy: *still tryin to figure out what really happened...*
Boy: *thinks* is askin if she s kinda-show-off girl creates this problem? she already said she was in good mood n this is the way she is replyin. then what wud be the case if she were in a bad mood? OMG! lucky me! Are all girls like this? :P fight for no reason outa no-where? Betta not to hav such a stupid friend like this! :P

PS: it wud hav been a really BIG post if i wrote the whole conversation here. So jus imagine some blah blahs in between - useless n senseless at the same time :P BTW, i'm happy to write the 4th part of 'Are All Girls Like This?' series!

nEvEr iN mY LiFe AgAiN...

i really feel ashamed! i could have done better. i had a Table Tennis match 2day n i screwed it. Same thing happened yesterday also. Comparatively, my opponents were not good-players. No, i'm not under-estimating them. They are really good players. But they were not up to my level till yesterday. For my dismay, they defeated me just like that. I did spoil my game a lot. i'm not playing well nowadays. Hmm.. :| Maybe. Godz teachin me some lesson... :)

Never in my life again, i'll play Table Tennis again. I gotta keep seeing this blog to keep me reminding about the embarrassment. Hope this will help me to keep myself away from the board. Hmm... i know its too tough for a decision but i gotta stop it. I'm not a good player n so be it.

mUjHe dArR LaG rAhA hAi...

Time was around 2PM when i heard my cell shouting. i knew it was a stranger for i had kept special ring tones for my friends. i answered the call and i heard a girl's voice.
"Mujhe darr lag raha hai" said the voice.
i was so irritated cuz f the call for it was disturbin my sleep. She asked for 'Rehan' uncle. Her voice was shivering. "Wrong number" i said and cut the cal.
i got a call again from the same number. she was callin me again n again even when i cut the cal. she was pissing me off.
"How many times i should tell you? WRONG NUMBER" i shouted and cut the call again.
She called me back again. This time she was crying. she said it was her mom's mobile and this is the number stored in the name of 'Rehan Uncle'. She again repeated "Mujhe darr lag raha hai". i dint know what to do. i felt she was talkin lying under her cot. She started crying. i asked her to dial 100 and call the police station if there is something wrong and asked her not to call me again.

i was so tensed. i dint know what i did was right or wrong.
"was there any thief in her home or was she kidnapped?"
or "Was she gonna suicide?" if tat was the case, the last dialed number is mine. OMG! Police is gonna squeeze the hell outa me. i couldnt help thinkin rubbish. i dint sleep properly that night. i wanted to help her for obvious reasons (i dint wanna get into trouble) but i dint want to call her also.

There are some situations where we become cruel. But are we really being cruel? i was helpin myself. at least i asked her to call the police. i still feel am guilty for some reason. was there any better way to help her?

ePiNePhRiNe, aka AdReNaLiNe...

it was rainin here in Chennai. it rarely happens here. The drainage system is way too bad here. Even if it rains only for a minute or so, we ll get to c an ocean, at least a lake, out there in the streets.
it was around 9PM when i was on the way to a hotel to get some food. i was carryin a very big umbrella also. i could see one guy walkin ahead f me...sight was no clear as the street dint hav much lights.
i started walkin a bit fast n i reached near him. we had to cross a narrow street. n this guy was walkin too slowly.
*Let me RACE* ;) i thot in my mind n i started walkin faster. i wanted to 'over-take' him. i reached closer.

*SPLAAAAAAAAASHHHHHHHHHHH*

i saw a very bright light right in front f me. it lasted not more than a second. Somethin like a human torch.
the guy who was walkin in front f me is gone! i dint even hear a sound f his voice...

Adrenaline was pumped outa my heart. i could feel every bit f it. How would you feel when u try to put ur finger in a relatively small hole? i had a similar kinda feelin... i dono how to explain tat.
i could feel all the muscels on my face. i could feel somethin washed away beneath my facial skin.
i jumped off from whr i stood.

OMG! he was struck by an electric line which broke cuz f the lightning. He was thrown 2-3 meters away. i dint even c what happened.

some ppl there carried him to a nearby house. i dint c him after that. He is not dead for sure. every1 thr was lookin at me. i dono if they were checkin if somethin happened to me or i did somethin to him...The splash f light is right in front f my eyes. tat was somethin which wud hav happend to me if on earth i over-took him. My eyes r shiverin yet. was god savin me from a danger?

i stil cant belive wat i saw... ther were many situations in my life where i had the effect f adrenaline, but not possibly like this one which i had today!