speak of the devil.

Its been so long since I met her. Not even a glance. I don't know why is she so busy these days - her status always shows red and I hate it. I tried to message her once. No reply. Argh! I don't understand why I keep embarrassing myself all the time. I should really stop thinking about her or keep looking for her.

The other day I thought I saw her. I saw her friends actually. She always goes with them and my heart always skips a beat when I see not just her but anyone in her group. It's really weird of my heart to pump adrenaline whenever I see any of them.

Speak of the devil and She shall appear - right in front of me.

I'm not sure if I've seen anyone else who looks so consistently beautiful - from any angle. Or in anything she does - you name it and she is just perfect.

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this isn't happening.

This was happening too frequently to be a coincidence. She’s there, again. 

She’s looking at me. She’s making me blush. I look at her. She's smiling - that ever-so-gorgeous smile. I want to sit closer to her. It stinks here. Let’s sit somewhere else, I say. No, he says. It doesn’t matter. I can see her. I’m sure she can see me too.

I can see her looking at me. Our eyes meet a hell lot of times. It’s making me embarrassed. I don’t regret. She’s so beautiful. Next time I should come alone. He always insists to come along with me. I can’t just ignore him. Of course I can. 

I know she likes me. And I like the fact that she likes me.

I haven’t said anything to him. I don’t want to. I look at him. I ask him something. He isn’t listening. What’s he…Oh wait. Why is he smiling? I didn’t ask anything even remotely funny. 

I’ll be back in a moment, I say. I get up and walk past him. I glance at her from the corner of my eye. Our eyes meet again. Not a hint of acquaintance. Yet, she was smiling...at him.

It wasn’t a coincidence. He was always there! He was always there with me whenever she was around.

God, I want to die.

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and she never texted again.

 “He was the one I was telling you about the other day.” Sarika says pointing towards me. I was waiting near the counter to pay the bill.

 Prakriti wasn’t listening. She was busy with her phone.

 “…condom? That was him.” Sarika says.

 The word condom broke her reverie.

 “Condom? What condom?” Prakriti says

 “The guy I told you about – he is the one. See that tall thin guy walking out?” Sarika says pointing at me.

 Akash?

 I and Prakriti knew each other through Book Club – an arrangement which let the employees borrow books from other employees. Prakriti had taken a few days’ vacation last week and got delayed in returning my book.

 I had sent a reminder message on her mobile for she wasn’t available at office. She apologized. And that’s how it started. We had started texting each other a lot and I instantly liked her.

 Prakriti was remembering the conversation she had with Sarika a few weeks ago.

 “You know what? I saw one guy buying a condom from our supermarket. I just can’t believe he bought a condom, a condom with so many guys and girls around him. I appreciate his guts.” Sarika said.

 “Really? Who? Oh my god. A lot of things are happening around us.” Prakriti says, clearly surprised. “Some people have fun in a different way. Look around. This place is like a mega-hostel with no warden, no parents, no one at all to control them. This is the best place a ‘couple’ can ask for. Anyway, I want to see that guy.” She winked.

 “But condoms? In front of a lot of people?” Sarika said, disgusted.

 “Okay. I agree. Condom’s a bit too much. Don’t tell me you people haven’t had ‘urges’ when you meet him.” Prakriti teased Sarika.

 Few days before…

 “Thank god no one rang the bell.” He said. Sarika was lying next to him in her bedroom.

 “Bell? Thank god you had a condom with you and my roommate has gone home.” She said.

 “Oh Prakriti has gone home? And the condom, my friend, Akash, bought it for me.”

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like moon. beautiful & beyond my reach.

Today, there is no money involved. No friends to persuade. Kavita, she is there, alone, 3 cubicles away. All I need to do is go say ‘Hi’. Still, I can’t. This time I do care. I do care what she would think of me. I do care what she would say, what she would tell her friends. I do care this time. Maybe it’s because of the fear of embarrassment, fear of failure. Or maybe it’s because I liked her.Above all, you need guts.

It was all coming back, like a flash-back – the day I had talked to someone, some stranger. “I will give 3000 rupees to whomever goes and talk to that girl sitting over there.” My manager had said pointing one in a group of girls sitting not more than 5 tables away from ours in the food court.It happened 4 years ago. I went and talked to her. I didn’t even know who that girl was. I didn’t care what she might think or what she might say. All I could think of was the money. I was dead nervous yet I managed to go talk to her. I was pretty sure that chances of seeing her again were very less.

Now, it’s different. I make up my mind one day and drop it the next moment. I feel it’s more like gardens. We plan to tend to them. We just always seem to put it off till next week. And to add to that, there is a common misconception among guys that beautiful girls doesn’t seem to share the enthusiasm of making friends with someone who’s hitting on them.

Kavita, she did look serious for I haven’t seen her smiling. Hope she isn’t arrogant. She is kind of modern by the way she dresses;Hindu for sure by her name; Non-vegetarian anddoesn’t look like a nerd. Being serious, not nerdy and being modern perfectly rules out all the possibilities of her not-being-arrogant. Guess she is single too. If not, well, let’s not talk about that. Mostly they tend to be on phone for a long time. I haven’t seen her oh phone at all, maybe once or twice. I heard she is social and jolly and really cool. I never dared to discuss her among my friends. People tend to be reserved when it comes to matters like this. I’m no different.

I knew I would talk to her one day and I did. Out of the blue! I didn’t give her a chance to talk. I was nervous and she was embarrassed I guess. I don’t expect to see her a lot and I’m sure I will save her some embarrassment if I don’t talk to her in front of her friends.

She wasn’t anything that I thought of. She isn’t serious. She looks gorgeous when she smiles. Maybe that’s the reason she smiles less. She is studious; hard-core vegetarian and die-hard religious. I got 4 wrongs out of 5. I don’t want to risk the last one.

She is like rains in Chennai – when it rains, it pours; when she talks, she’s wonderful. Otherwise, I just don’t exist at all.

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embarrassed. a little.

That’s her, walking towards me. Oh God, she is beautiful. I try to look away. No. I can’t. I try to catch her eyes. She doesn't seem to notice me. She can’t miss me. No one’s around. I try to remember our first meet. It was out of the blue. She was surprised. Maybe shocked. I felt lucky in some way when she didn't take it bad. Kind of a dream come true. We did talk later. A couple of times or maybe a little more. 

I look at her. I smile.

She doesn’t.

Thank god, no one's around.

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best friend can be your best enemy - 4

November 6th 2007 4:00 PM

Kiran: Uncle, you wanted proof huh?
Dad: What is that you need, Kiran?
Kiran: Listen to this first…

He took his mobile and played a sound clip…

Kiran: Hey, how are you?
Asha: I’m fine.

Dad was stunned to hear Asha’s voice. He didn’t utter a word and kept listening.

K: How’s Anoop doing? Is he calling you these days?
A: He had called me before you called. He is doing good.
K: Okay. Tell me, how much do you love him?
A: I don’t know. I love him so much that I can’t think of missing him.
K: But he scolds you a lot.
A: Yes, that happens. Even I scold him a lot, if he talks to Anjali. Hehe…
K: So, are you planning for register marriage?
A: I don’t know if he will agree for that. I’m ready for anything though. I need to tell him about that...
K: Hmmm…
A: Hey, what’s that sound?
K: Oh…wait. That happens when-

Kiran: Now, what do you say Uncle?

PS: Kiran wanted evidence to prove the affair between Asha and Anoop. He called Asha and started a conversation. He himself brought the topic of 'Register Marriage' and he cut the call. He called back a minute later so that he can record the conversation and started as if its a new call and not as a continuation of the previous call. Asha wasn't smart enough to interpret the beep sound was of recording.

PPS: The End.

best friend can be your best enemy - 3

November 6th 2007 7:00 PM

Dad meets Anoop.

Dad: So, do you have any idea about what we were told about you and my daughter?
Anoop: I have no idea.
D: YOU HAVE NO IDEA?
A: No, I have no idea.
D: Is there anything between you and Asha?
A: No
D: Are you sure?
A: Yes.
Renjith: Anoop, tell him if there is anything between you and Asha. He just wants to hear it from you.
A: What are you talking about? There is nothing between me and her.
R: He has got proof.
A: What?
D: Don’t make-
A: I don’t love her.
R: He has proof. Anoop, look, he will agree this. He just wants to hear it from you. Just say the truth. He talked to Asha and she has confessed. That’s the reason he is asking you.
A: I need to talk to Asha. I want to hear it from her.
D: <SLAAPP> GET OUT OF HERE. I WILL KILL YOU IF I EVER HAPPEN TO SEE YOU AGAIN.

***

November 2nd 2007

Dad meets Kiran.

Kiran: Uncle?
Dad: I talked to Anoop and also to Asha. What’s your interest in making any relation between Anoop and Asha?
K: My interest?
D: Yes, I heard its you who is spreading the rumor that Anoop and Asha is having an affair.
K: Spreading the news? It’s not me.
Dad: I talked to Renjith, Dileep, Karthick, Rahul, Sachin, Bijoy and everyone I could get a hold of and they all said it’s you. You son of a bitch! <SLAP>

best friend can be your best enemy - 2

November 4th 2007

Kiran: How are you Asha? How’s everything going? Are you people still fighting?

Asha: Haha…hey that happens with lovers you see. Find a girlfriend for yourself. You will know.

K: Hmmm…I can understand you people are still fighting a lot. Don’t you have any plans to get married? Or do you want to get married to him?

A: Of course. I love him. I want him to marry me. He wants too.

K: You think your parents will agree?
A: My dad will agree I’m sure. No idea about mom. Let’s see.
K: Why don’t you guys think of a register marriage?
A: Hmmm…that’s the last resort.
K: Hey, I will call you in a minute.

A minute later…

K: Hey, how are you?
A: I’m fine.
K: How’s Anoop doing? Is he calling you these days?
A: He had called me before you called. He is doing good.
K: Okay. Tell me, how much do you love him?
A: I don’t know. I love him so much that I can’t think of missing him.
K: But he scolds you a lot.
A: Yes, that happens. Even I scold him a lot, if he talks to Anjali. Hehe…
K: So, are you planning for register marriage?
A: I don’t know if he will agree for that. I’m ready for anything though. I need to tell him about that...
K: Hmmm…
A: Hey, what’s that sound?
K: Oh…wait. That happens when I’m talking and charging at the same time. Don’t bother. I took it off.
A: Oh…okay. No problem. I just asked.

best friend can be your best enemy.

Let me confess the fact that what you are about to read could (or could not) be a fiction (or a non-fiction). You are not going to believe me anyway.

***

Those days…

Kiran: Hey, what happened? I saw 14 missed calls from you. Is there any problem?
Asha: Yes, Anoop scolded me and he does that all the time. He is getting on my nerve these days. I don’t know what to do.
K: Hey, he loves you a lot. Don’t get worried about him.
A: I know he loves me and all that but he gets too possessive about me and I hate that.
K: Hmm… I understand. Guys usually get possessive. You know how guys are.
A: I love him. I didn’t say I don’t. It’s just that…I don’t know. You know he told me not to talk to you also. He doesn’t like my having best friends and saying everything to you.
K: Oh…I didn’t know he asked you not to talk to me also. He is fine when he talks to me.

***

Anoop: Hey Ash, what have you been doing all this while? I didn’t even see a single message of yours. Got busy with your friends huh?
Asha: Oh please Anoop…don’t start all over.
Anoop: So, talked to Kiran? How’s he doing?
Asha: How’s your best friend Anjali doing? No news about her lately.
Anoop: See, you don’t have to bring Anjali into this. She is my friend and mine alone. Kiran is not someone like Anjali. He is a mutual friend.
Asha: So what? Who cares? He is my BEST FRIEND. I WILL TALK TO HIM.
Anoop: Why are you shouting? Who asked you not to talk? You can. You always can. But you don’t have to tell him everything. That won’t do us any good.
Asha: I don’t think so. I can’t help it. To me, he is just like Anjali is to you.
Anoop: You can’t trust someone blindly. I know him better than you do.
Asha: Whatever.

even i can write stories.

OK. Let me confess the fact that this post is a fiction.

I was getting so bored one day when I was sitting in the office – no work to do, yet a critical resource. I thought I’ll make some friends. I’ve an option to use some ‘Happy Hours’ in my office where I get to access commercial websites.

And then, I found this girl to chat with. I first sent a very casual email though I never expected a reply. Girls don’t reply to emails from strangers, you see. And then, just like I said, there was no reply. You know how guys behave when they find a girl. I sent another email, this time apologizing. Nope, she didn’t fall for that too. I underestimated this girl. I sent another email saying – even your best friends were strangers to you some day, just like I’m now.

I got a reply. And I replied and she replied and I replied and it went on and on. The first day we exchanged 28 emails. I didn’t have any bad intentions though. I knew she didn’t trust me enough as you can’t trust anyone online. Emails became continuous and then I invited her to chat. She accepted and then we chatted for hours and hours everyday. One day, I asked her mobile number and never expected she would respond the way she did. After all, it’s just a number. But it’s her mobile number. I wanted to talk to her. Desperately. I found a work-around. I gave her my number.

She got busy and we didn’t chat for a few days. One day I got a text message from an unknown number saying it was her number and she would come online after sometime. I suddenly replied saying ‘Now you trust me enough to share your mobile number, huh?’

Okay. Now, that was the start. We stopped chatting and started messaging. And then we talked. I wanted more. I wanted her to sing and she did. See, human beings are desperate. They are not happy with what they already have. Now that I got her number, I wanted to see her. And then I saw her, she saw me and blah blah blah...

I’m a dumbass when it comes to ‘flirting’. I didn’t mean to say she was an expert but we got close enough to compliment each other saying about our good qualities (if that can be called flirting). We were getting closer day by day. We wanted to chat always. I wanted her to keep in touch with me thru messages. Chatting, telephoning, emailing, flirting, possessiveness, love, like, this that… Just like you can imagine how couples would be.

But no, we haven’t proposed each other yet but we were sure that we loved each other. At least we don’t mind loving each other if not we haven’t loved each other as yet. I happened to be one of the good guys she happened to meet and after 89 thoughtful days she decided to say it first.

‘Hey, I want to tell you something so very important.’ She said.
‘What?’ I enquired.
‘Marry Me.’
‘WHAT?’ I was shocked.
‘I mean, listen to that song. It’s nice!’

PS: So, I had nothing to do for the whole day at office and the idea of making a new friend, messaging, talking, flirting tempted me to write this post. :D

Timeline by Michael Crichton

Time Travel and Quantum Mechanics always interested me. I have once taken a seminar on the topic 'Time Travel' when I was in college. I wanted to read 'Timeline' more than any other book when my friend told me 'Timeline' is about time-travel.

The book is really interesting. Author gives a very good picture about 'Parallel Universes' and how time travel is possible and all that. The story is about a guy, a professor, who got 'stuck' in the past and some of his students are going back to 'retrieve' him. Story doesn't actually describe how he got stuck there, though its a fact.

Scientific terms come only in a very few pages in the book. Its all about how these students survived the incidents that happened in the past and successfully brought their professor back.

All along I was thinking, why ITC (the company which invented the technology which supports time-travel) was asking these students to go 600 years back to save their professor instead of going just 2 days back and ask the professor not to enter the machine or just stop him from time-travel?

lie with me.

September 2010
'I always wished to lie with you. Maye we dont desere it. You shouldn't e sad. That girl is nice. Lie happily with that girl. ye...' - This was a part of the email which was sent to him 3 years ago.

His wife happened to see this email after these many years. Guess what? Like any other girl, she thought he was cheating on her.

Verdict - They got separated.

Reason - April 2007. He still remembers his friend saying about her stupid keyboard - keys 'B' and 'V' not working.

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where the heck is venus?

'Venus is in 7th column. Sun is in 4th column and Jupiter is in the 9th column. See, 1st column, 2nd column and these columns are all left blank. No...We cant take this horoscope, no matter how good the girl is!' they exclaimed.

I'm sure by the time I get married, I will get to learn astrology. Now I can understand how our great-elders talk astrology when it comes to a marriage. I'm surprised when I find myself looking at the horoscopes and checking for 'paapam' (technical words - cant help it :D).

I don't understand how these planets, so very millions of kilometers away from earth, affect a living being living on earth. Worst case - how it affects only those who live in India? :O

'Why are you in such a hurry to get married, Son? You will regret once you get married.' my father said winking at me and giving a I-dint-say-anything look at mom.

As a matter of fact, I'm not in a hurry to get married. I'm just 26. But I get fed up when they look at these horoscopes and reject saying Venus is in the 7th / 8th column (Chovva Dosham - technical term :D). Chovva Dosham is known to be the worst of all Doshams - God-knows-what! I keep looking for Venus when I find a horoscope. Isn't that funny? :D

I tell you, if you people go for horoscope-match, only 1 in 200 will suit yours. :P Better you find one for yourself and elope! khe khe khe...

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hope this idea will work :D

Me: OK. Hi... My name is Anoop. I've been watching you since last...hmmm I dono. You know, you look beautiful and maybe that's the reason I got attracted to you. I don't wanna take risk loving you just cuz you are beautiful. On the other hand I don't wanna lose you also for maybe you are good at heart too. I hope you are not committed. I wont be in this company for long. My last date here is April 16. So don't fear that I would be following you all the time. I wont ask your mobile number also. You can just drop the idea if you feel I'm not lucky enough to be your friend. So, can we be friends?

Girl: Oh my God! Who are you?!

Me: Sorry, I dint mean to give a shock or make this conversation this lengthy. I dint rehearse this and this is my first time.

Girl: Hmmm... What's your....?

Me: Wow! Thanks! My ID is 2*4*4*!

PS: This is a complete fiction. I saw this girl in the cafeteria and I was just dreaming how it would be if I just give her a shock like that. :D Will she respond the way that girl did in my dream? :P

PPS: Thanks to MS Office Communicator. Employees across the company can chat each other using their employee ID.

yet another finding.

I had once asked in one of my blog (and God knows which blog it is) why still there are lot of arranged-marriages* happening even when I see lot of lovers around.

I found the reason.

I will tell you a story! Once there lived a guy who loved a girl. He thought they loved each other a lot and cant exist in this world without being together. They informed their parents about this and that became a serious issue. And for some reason they broke-up. Years later, this guy happened to meet some other gal and fell in love with her. He loved her so much. But, he started to thinking of the embarrassment he will have to face if he tell this to his parents cuz they already knew about his first affair. And for that reason, he sacrificed his love!

This is not the case with everyone but I'm sure those who got over the first affair would definitely hesitate at the first hand to tell their parents about their second affair. And that can be, which i suppose, would be the reason for many arranged-marriages* in this hard-to-find-single world!

*doesn't mean Love & Arranged marriages.

iF tHaT, wHy nOt tHiS..?

Please dont say the reason 'You are my friend and i cant see you like 'that'...'. Please, Not again! If you can marry a total stranger, whom your parents find, Why not a good friend of yours whom you know for years?

55 fiCTioN #5

55 Fiction is a form of micro-fiction that refers to the works of fiction limited to a maximum of fifty-five words.

THE PSYCHO

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The scream pierced her ears.
What's happening? she thought

In the other room she saw her husband dead.
Frightened, she began to search the cupborad for the gun. It was missing.
Seeing a figure, running towards her, she shudderred.

'Mummyyyy, I KILLED HIM!' she screamed, hugging her mom tight.
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PS: I recently read an article featuring a psychopath-father molesting his own daughter. This post is dedicated to that f*cking-psycho-father.

wHy dOnT wE eLoPe..?

ask me not to talk to you
ask me not to hav food
ask me not to sleep

Take my life, but not you away from me.

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yOu aRe miNE...

God gifted you eyes to look at me
ears to hear me
voice to talk to me
lips to kiss me
hands to hug me
legs to walk with me

and a mind to think about me...

i rEgReT iT nOw...

when i said you are the most beautiful girl i have ever met,
when i said i love you,
when i said i cant live without you,
when i said i will wait for you for the rest of my life,

i lied.